As It All Falls Apart

As It All Falls Apart


It hurts in moments like this
In the darkness
Through the tears
As I stare at the ceiling
I can feel that I'm losing
That I'm being left behind
And it doesn't matter that I cry
How it doesn't change
The way things are
It doesn't ease the confusion
It doesn't alleviate the fears
The tears I cry in the night
Are always lost and hidden
Hidden in the pillows
That I hold onto at night
It breaks something inside
Because I know that I have lost
Because I can feel you yearning
Because I can see you leaving
There is nothing I can do
My love isn't enough to hold you
And I have no right to try
I'm not the chosen one now
Not the one that gives you light
Not the one that makes you laugh
Not the one who has a claim now
And it hurts like I have never hurt before
And I bleed where no one else can see
And I hide because no one can help
The tears are shed more often now
As I see I cannot keep you happy
And I curl up under the blankets
As it all falls apart.

~Seraphiel~
March 31, 2007