Restructuring

Made by kajivar

So, I haven't used my poetry journal in a long time, but that's about to change.

No harm, no foul if you'd rather not stay. These are going to be my poems and my emotions (some of which I have kept in a notebook all year and not posted), so some of them will be full of emotion and may be hurtful. However, they are mine and they come from my feelings and emotions and thoughts, so they will be posted. There are no filters on this journal and there will not be.

After The Flood

After The Flood

The depression tends to get so bad right now
No matter how hard I try to work through it
It's not so bad when there are people around
Especially her
Her smiles and happiness rub off on me
And in those times I'm able to hide
The lonliness and sadness that I feel.

But when darkness falls and I'm again alone
The dark emotions and feelings come back
They make me feel so down and so alone
It hurts so much in the night
Enough that it's hard sometimes to deal
So, I curl up and I let the tears come in the night
After dark, where no one can hear them.

When the sun comes up again,
So do my smiles and they even reach my eyes
No one ever has a clue how much it hurts inside
Because I am so careful not to show it
Because I don't want any one to know
How much I hurt on the inside sometimes.

Because you see
I'm very good at pretending to be all right.
I have a lot of practice at it
And always have.

After the flood of tears
I start again
Because that is what I do.


~Muse
December 27, 2008