In The Middle

[eternalscribe]

My head is pounding as I try to get through my day
---Should have checked my bag for my glasses this morning
My heart is aching, my chest is tightening
As I read everything that has been sent to me

I'm still unclear on what exactly happened
On why this blow-up had occurred
Why two such good friends drew knives
And did their best to draw each other's blood

"And every time you tried to hurt me
"I just hurt you even worse and so much deeper..."

I've seen them do this once before
It was over three years ago
Right after I came into the picture
And the pain on both sides left me bitter

And now I'm in the middle.

On the one side, I have her
She's been a friend/sister off and on for almost seven years
We've had our issues and went our own ways
Only to find our way back to each other again

On the other side, I have him
Someone I've searched all of my life for
Someone I've banged heads with repeatedly
Someone who has healed my mind and soul

And now, I'm in the middle.

Who do I stand with
What do I do
Do I have to make a choice
Between life and love?

They stab at each other
With words sharper than knives
Blood from invisible wounds
Splashes me from both sides

Is it possible for me to keep them both even if they hate each other
And would she really ruin something that means the world to me
By banning him completely from the vicinity
Knowing me as well as she does and how this would hurt me

Would he really cut her off completely
Making things a little bit awkward for us
They've been so close
And it was him who encouraged all to forgive

Soulmate or Heartmate
Do I really have to take a side
No matter which way I turn
I may not have a choice.

And now, I'm in the middle.

~~DKS~~
11/25/02