Cliffs

[eternalscribe]

Cliffs
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She stands on the edge of a cliff
Alone as the winds blow against her
She can feel the ground crumbling
Beneath her feet
As she fights to regain stability
But every time she feels secure and balanced
A little more crumbles away

She goes through the pages of her mind
Making sure she was complete and thorough
She had torn all of her loved ones from her
Like the fragile pages from a scrapbook
She had set them free among the winds
So they would not be hurt when she fell

She's not so sure she has the strength anymore
To overcome anything adverse tossed her way
Her defenses and armor are disintegrating
She doesn't know how long she can hold it all in
Pretending to everyone she's so in control
All the while knowing she was going to take a fall

She cut all of her loved ones out of her life
Not taking the time for any explanations
She can feel her mask start to slip away
As it becomes so much harder not to break down
The ground seems to be crumbling beneath her
And there is nothing for her to grab onto

"Leave me alone" "Stay away" "I don't care about you any more"
Her messages were terse and untrue, but effective
She made them all believe she just didn't care
While all the while her heart was shattering
But she didn't want them to see her lose it completely
Witnesses as a Phoenix crashed to the ground

She's falling apart inside
But her facade stays in place
She can't explain why she's going to pieces
Only that she can't prevent her slide
And so she clings to her shrinking solitude
As the cliff continues to break away from beneath her...

~~Seraphiel
February 24, 2003