Impossible Change

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Impossible Change

It hurts so much
To breathe
To think
To talk
To cry
To exist.

Hiding under the shower
So none will hear your tears
Feeling broken from all of it
Choking back words
Wanting to curl into yourself
Want to make the hurt disappear

Can't sleep for the dreams and the pain in your heart
Can't eat because food just sticks in your throat right now
Can't focus because you replay those words in your mind
Can't talk because doing so makes you cry

The pain threatens to break you
You've never felt like this before
Can't put on a happy face
Especially when your smiles don't reach your eyes
You're seeing the world through a haze of gray
Don't believe the colours will ever come out again

Going through the motions
Trying to make it through each day
But there are times you think you cannot do it
Times you just want to drop in your path
Because the pain in your heart is threatening to choke you
And the tears are burning your eyes

You don't see how someone can hurt this much
And still be breathing
But you are and it doesn't make sense
Crushed and broken and falling to pieces inside
But you try to be strong so others don't see
How incredibly impossible this change is for you.


~Seraphiel
May 6, 2007