Song Of Pain

Song Of Pain
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I don't understand. I don't know who to believe.

I'm trying...
To say you hurt my pride
I'm trying...
To heal an angry wound...

I miss you. I love you.
I want to come home even though I know I can't.

And if I could believe
That you could be trying too...
Then once again
I'd try to believe in you...

I don't remember everything that happened
I can't remember everything that was said
I can only remember feeling the pain
How did everything spiral so out of control?

I'm trying to find my destiny
And I'm trying to figure out who I truly am
And I'm trying not to turn
To runaway and hide
I'm trying not to runaway and hide...

What happened to the love we once shared
How did everything go so very wrong
And whatever happened to us?

I'm trying to make you understand how I feel
To justify my feelings of betrayal
I'm trying to describe my pain to you
How badly you hurt me with your coldness
And all the while...
I'm trying not to cry
Not to cry...

You never really listened to what I had to say
I don't think you really wanted to hear
You felt much safer drawing your own conclusions
Never noticing the tears I was trying to hide
Unaware how badly your actions scarred me

I'm trying...
To find some strength inside of me
And trying not to be ruled by my pride
I'm trying to stand tall on my own
And I'm trying not to run from you
Run from you...

I never planned on any of this happening
I never wanted you to see the depth of my pain
You hurt me so very badly
I never had expected it
You never looked beneath the surface of my words
And when I stopped arguing
And when I stopped talking
You took my silence as uncaring
Overlooking the tears and my heartache
Why couldn't you see that I was trying to stand tall
And trying to be strong
So I didn't break down in front of you

And if I could believe...
That you're trying, too
Then I'd try to believe in you
One more time
I'd take another chance
And I'd try to believe in you...


~Seraphiel

Phoenix And Roase

Phoenix and Roase
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I never thought it would come to this
Never expected my heart to be at risk
But now that it has happened
I close my eyes and float on the wind...

Phoenix dancing among the fires
Twining in and out among the colored flames
Rose held firmly in your mighty talons
Blending the two of you into one

You sing your song in the flames
Burning for that which you desire
Sing some more my avian flame
Share with me the secrets you keep

Dancing, dancing oh creature of wonder
Keeping my eyes glued to you
Touch me, touch me, bird of fire
Guide me into that sensual burning

The rose grows among the flames
It's petals edged in silver
Growing, blooming, reaching still
Wrapping itself around the bird of fire

Burning, burning the two become one
Showing me what I seek
Burning, yearning, blending, binding
Binding me to the vows I now speak

Quicksilver flame of my heart
Blood red rose on the pyre
Phoenix and rose, the two become one
Now show me what it is you desire.

~Seraphiel