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Tangled In My Memory
Doing daily tasks online
Nothing too stressful
Not meant to be thought provoking
Spur of the moment decision
Creation process of random
Causes lightheartedness to drain away
First picture on the screen
First name in the list
A name I hadn't thought about in awhile
A face I hadn't seen in years
Silliness fades away as I stare
Door of memory opens too far
You look the same as I remember
Your hair is a bit shorter I guess
Your eyes haven't changed much
Or maybe it's just the pictures I see
I move the mouse away from the name
But at the last minute click on the link
Nothing much is said
So I guess that's good
I hope you're doing well
That's all I have ever hoped for
And as I close the page
I wonder if you ever think of me
The paths of life have been ever changing
Most memories have faded to gray
But sometimes, something startles the mind
Causes more memories to come to life again
I remember in crystal clear clarity
When there were no harsh words between us
A fading patch of carpet
In front of a large movie screen
Costumes to match the movie
Characters in a play
Getting caught up in the roles we played
Easy to do when you're in love I guess
Late nights up at the diner
Smell of smoke and coffee
Laughing at dumb jokes
Squished together in a corner booth
The world was no more than this
Spirits wild and free
Watching the sun come up
Still laughing about the night
Falling asleep when we hit the pillows
Feeling of joy surrounding everything
Wake up late in the day get caffeine
Everything right with our world
I walk away from the computer
Go downstairs to make tea
Smile at what we made as she writes
Shaking my head as she frowns
She wants to know what's wrong
I tell her nothing
She doesn't believe me, of course
She's too wise to be put off
So finally I tell her it was just memories
Memories that had been forgotten
Memories that had been sleeping
Memories I didn't expect
I make a cup of tea
Go back upstairs, pack some more
Keep my mind busy
Not understanding why it won't be quiet
It was so long ago
Friendship lost in so much anger
Will it always be like this, I wonder
Will I always get images of a past
Will they always come when least expected
Will they always cause me to stutter in my steps
Will they always shock me with their appearance
Will they always make me sad
Time for bed, takes too long to sleep
The dreams that come make no sense
Then and now get tangled together
Pain and anger blend into each other
Bitterness braided into memories
Too many corelations between then and now
So I try to tuck your memory away
Lock it back in the closet in my mind
Maybe to forget it again for a little while
Forget it until I can handle thinking about you
Forget it until the pain doesn't smother me
Forget until you are then and not tangled with the pain of now.
~Muse
November 10, 2009
Doing daily tasks online
Nothing too stressful
Not meant to be thought provoking
Spur of the moment decision
Creation process of random
Causes lightheartedness to drain away
First picture on the screen
First name in the list
A name I hadn't thought about in awhile
A face I hadn't seen in years
Silliness fades away as I stare
Door of memory opens too far
You look the same as I remember
Your hair is a bit shorter I guess
Your eyes haven't changed much
Or maybe it's just the pictures I see
I move the mouse away from the name
But at the last minute click on the link
Nothing much is said
So I guess that's good
I hope you're doing well
That's all I have ever hoped for
And as I close the page
I wonder if you ever think of me
The paths of life have been ever changing
Most memories have faded to gray
But sometimes, something startles the mind
Causes more memories to come to life again
I remember in crystal clear clarity
When there were no harsh words between us
A fading patch of carpet
In front of a large movie screen
Costumes to match the movie
Characters in a play
Getting caught up in the roles we played
Easy to do when you're in love I guess
Late nights up at the diner
Smell of smoke and coffee
Laughing at dumb jokes
Squished together in a corner booth
The world was no more than this
Spirits wild and free
Watching the sun come up
Still laughing about the night
Falling asleep when we hit the pillows
Feeling of joy surrounding everything
Wake up late in the day get caffeine
Everything right with our world
I walk away from the computer
Go downstairs to make tea
Smile at what we made as she writes
Shaking my head as she frowns
She wants to know what's wrong
I tell her nothing
She doesn't believe me, of course
She's too wise to be put off
So finally I tell her it was just memories
Memories that had been forgotten
Memories that had been sleeping
Memories I didn't expect
I make a cup of tea
Go back upstairs, pack some more
Keep my mind busy
Not understanding why it won't be quiet
It was so long ago
Friendship lost in so much anger
Will it always be like this, I wonder
Will I always get images of a past
Will they always come when least expected
Will they always cause me to stutter in my steps
Will they always shock me with their appearance
Will they always make me sad
Time for bed, takes too long to sleep
The dreams that come make no sense
Then and now get tangled together
Pain and anger blend into each other
Bitterness braided into memories
Too many corelations between then and now
So I try to tuck your memory away
Lock it back in the closet in my mind
Maybe to forget it again for a little while
Forget it until I can handle thinking about you
Forget it until the pain doesn't smother me
Forget until you are then and not tangled with the pain of now.
~Muse
November 10, 2009
